..Unleashed..

I guess time really does more damage than heal you. I used to think that giving second chances to pasts meant like starting new. But time and again the world seems to be reminding me why I should never go back to the people who I might have loved from every fiber of my being. "Once upon a time" should always be kept in the past. I was stupid to think that; what a person might have told me years ago would hold on even today. I "hoped". I did it again, didn't I? Yes, I am that weak, nauseating nobody who feels the need to "hope". I wish I could change that bit about myself. Now it's too late. It's ingrained in my system now. I suffer from this disease. Somebody convince me otherwise, please. Tell me that I'm crazy like every bubbly little child living in that fairytale dream. Burst that bubble for me, go ahead all of u. Coz in the end, I'm still going to try to keep hoping even when the going gets rough. I'm that cr...

All my life I thought I was the one suffering from trust issues; I never knew that there could be someone worse than me. I thought there was no hope for me but I was like my star sign an Arian. Even after all the misery that life put me through I came out stronger and somewhere I believed that my knight in shining armor would be standing to save me from the miseries of my life. That never happened. Instead I learned to put on a brave heart and face the stormy days alone. I denied that there could be 'hope' for me but my friends kept telling me that 'without hope there's no life'. Lies, lies and lies ; I surrounded myself with lies. No one knows the real story anymore, to everyone it has become a Bollywood film playing in real life. Many of my friends say you should write a book and tell the world of the realities that a young girl like me had to face in those days. But what s the point? It will be filed in some corner of some library or be in the dustbin of s...

There came a time in my life where I  thought or assumed that I had to do the right thing. So I gave up all my childish ways and thought like an adult. I started to see my life through the eyes of my parents because according to me that was the right thing to do. But what I didn't see coming my way was the storm that has now brought me to a position where I don't know the difference between right and wrong. If I follow my heart I'll hurt everyone around me and if I follow the way of my parents I'll never be happy. Well, that s what love does to us. I am starting to lose every bit of sanity on what is the right way out of this problem. Which weighs heavier religion or the happiness of the mind? Well, I'm tired of asking these questions since nobody has the right answer for me. So I'm going to wait till the last minute and then destroy myself when I can't bare the hurt alone. They say one should accept change when it comes your way but I'm t...

Sometimes I lie quietly in bed       The noise decreasing slowly   I think of happy thoughts To lull myself to sleep The memories are bright  Colorful and happy I yearn for the moment I raise my hand to feel But they pass by I try to touch and catch They slip away too quickly The sands of time whisked away I feel an ache somewhere  It grows stronger and stronger I turn and toss trying hard But the tears fall after all  I’m wide awake now But the fear in me grows  The shadows are gone Taking away my soul. 

© www.tumblr.com/tagged/summer%20f You met with hopes in your eyes The minute I saw you I knew I should have left but I waited For all the memorable moments The earrings you bought The words you said; transparent You were clear cut, the shards fell But you wanted it all; tangible The rain came, the baggage’s left The words hung out there Time crept upon the rest of us Then destiny dawned at length Now we exchange a salute Barely a whisper, a mutter It was to be; the loquacity  But I shall suppress it all.

The distance between the two ©   secretsofagoodgirl.com The conversation grown stale The awkwardness has set in The eyes meet a stranger The understanding vanished The room goes cold Even the steps resound I can feel the gate crashing I’m trying to breathe I keep distracting myself I never said forever The search party returned Now I’m left empty handed You couldn’t be found The rescue ended yesterday Replaced by distant spaces.